Everything has become such a mess! Remember I told you I was dating Bradley. Well, we pretty much broke up. I don’t really know though because he hasn’t talked to me in weeks now. Ever since that day at the Bluffs when I stayed with Wolfgang and Morgan and let him leave in a huff.
I thought I liked Bradley Mom, but there is something about the way Wolfgang looks at me. It’s so exciting. Whenever I’ve seen Wolfgang since that day at the bluffs, I just feel there is a connection.
There is also something sad I’ve seen in him that seems to call out to that same sadness in me. I’ve only known him for a few weeks now, but I feel different about Wolfgang compared to how I feel, well, I guess I should say felt, about Bradley. Besides, Bradley won’t talk to me at all. Like I said, I think we’re broke up.
I cannot be certain, but last week when Wolfgang and I met at the coffee shop I think Bradley walked by. I hope it wasn’t him, but I’m pretty sure it was, I just caught the boy out of the corner of my eye as he passed.
I tried to call Bradley that night after the bluffs and a few times since. He hasn’t picked up. I tried texting him too nearly every day in the beginning, but he never replied.
He even turns down another hall in school if he sees me coming. I am feeling that sadness press in more often these days. I wish things were as simple for me as they once were.
I’ve been trying to keep him off my mind. I’ve been out a few times with Wolfgang, he’s come to the library when the kids and I have been there studying.
Wolfgang was studying a bit of biology while he was there. I was happy to assist him with his homework.
Mrs. Munch also brought both Lucas and Wolfgang to the coffee shop to hang out for a while. I got the feeling she wanted to meet me. She is such a wonderful person. I liked her immediately.
I also must admit to liking that Wolfgang wanted his mom to spend some time with me and the kids.
I remember Josef saying early on that Mrs. Gill wasn’t very nice, and I always got the feeling she didn’t think I was good enough for her boy Bradley.
I’ve been trying to keep my mind off these boyfriend troubles and it’s been helpful keeping my mind occupied with the garden as well as maintaining our home.
Home…that sends a thrill through me to think that word. It’s wonderful to have actual walls around us again Mom. We were in that tent for a long time.
Wow time really has passed! Sophie certainly has grown up so quickly over this time since you’ve been gone.
I guess tragedy and living in secret for years will do that to a child.
She’s had to mature more quickly than I would have hoped. I have tried to keep things as normal as possible, but it hasn’t always been easy. I can say I’ve done the best I could though.
Sophie and I will celebrate our birthdays together this year at the bluffs in a few weeks. I figure since our birthdays are only 10 days apart anyway we may as well. I cannot believe she’s nearly a teenager! My baby sister. I still remember you telling me that she was my special birthday present when you brought her home from the hospital. That I got to be a big sister now. I hope she feels I’ve been as good of big sister to her as I’ve seen her be to Josef.
<tears smudge the ink a bit>
Anyway, I’ve been saving up, I am going to try getting a used computer from the PC shop in town for Sophie’s birthday present. She’s always talking to those hacker kids in the library when we go there.
I’ve seen her taking notes in her notebook too. She’s so smart, I know with a bit of practice she could be designing her own apps and stuff.
Josef is so goofy sometimes, he truly brings the sunshine to mine and Sophie’s life. He’s been with us almost as long as we’ve been here in Windenburg. I cannot imagine our lives without him. Everyone thinks he is our cousin, but I think of him as our brother. I know Sophie does too. I sit back and watch him sometimes and even though I can see he’s sad, he tries not to bring others down.
If I ask what’s wrong, he says nothing and turns it around and tells a joke or makes a silly face. He has been so good for our family.
I wish I could turn the sadness off as easily as Josef can, I miss you Mom, I miss talking with you. I miss being able to ask for advice. I miss turning to you to help figure out what we are going to do next. We are doing the best we can.
Your loving daughter, Victoria
A/N – I know Sophie basically went from 9 (in Chapter 3) to a teen…but yeah, you know Sims age up to teen in like 8 game days so I tried to do something. Not the best time jump…sorta wish I hadn’t said her age to be 9 in that early chapter! It would have been better for her to be 11 or so…There isn’t as much physical difference between a Teen and a YA so it wasn’t as big of deal with Victoria. Ah well, pretend about 3.5 years total had passed before Bradley’s party ok? As a note, Josef is also close to teen, so I’ll say he’s roughly 1 year younger than Sophie. Thanks all for giving me a bit of grace on this! 🙂